Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Everything in physical experience runs in chains of dependency. Those chains sustain each link-to-link-like relationship by reinforcing the first ideas in the chain with the later links. So, if you retain the fundamental ideas that sustain a chain of dependency, then you will suffer from guilt that runs through the whole chain right up to the issue itself, from the most abstract ideas to the most “solid” expressions of those ideas. In other words, you will feel guilt on multiple levels for every level of involvement that you have with everything in the world that in some way causes harm to others, from working at a company that pollutes to belonging to a political party that sometimes hurts people.

Our sense of responsibility is the chain that binds us to guilt. However, in Truth, we are not responsible for anything. That does not mean we can hurt people with no consequences, but we are not responsible for what we do. We do not have the free will necessary to hold any responsibility.

I know that this is a confusing and implausible statement, but please stay with me. At each moment of time we make a decision based on our entire past experience as it reacts to our current life situation. In this moment the one finite thing (our present self) reacts to another finite thing (our current circumstances.) This interaction between two finites produces a finite response that is not based on "free will" of any sort. In fact, there is no "free will" involved in any situation.

Free will is an idea that our conscious mind runs on. But, it is completely an illusion. However, the illusion of free will is all we need to function. We do not need an absolute and unquestionable free will to act. We are a function and we function.

Guilt is not a reality based response to what we do. We unfairly judge ourselves based on hindsight. But, in the moment, no matter how bad or flawed our decision and action is, it is the best we are capable of in that moment. The conceit that somehow that person was capable of doing better is the lie that seeks to establish guilt and justify punishment. But, there is no basis for it in reality.

Responsibilities, as we said before, tie us to guilt by implicitly suggesting that to not fulfill our "responsibility" is to harm others when, through our free will, we can simply choose to always fulfill all our responsibilities without exception. Even if one could pull off such a feat for a day or a week or even a month, our human nature will ultimately cause us to fail at some level. It is not lack of desire that prevents us from fulfilling the fantasty of "responsibility," it is the fantasy nature of the idea of responsibility itself.

It is not your responsibility to get rid of your remaining sense of guilt. If there is any remaining responsibilities that you are holding onto, you just need to realize that you have no responsibility in that area. Knowing this, you will still choose to fulfill most of them because of the negative consequences of not fulfilling them. Know you have no responsibilities doesn't radically change how you behave, only how you think about your behavior. Your "failure" to be "responsible" can simply become an affirmation of the non-existence of "free will" and "responsibility."

Here is an example of some responsibilities that you might still be carrying around mentally. I have to figure out how to survive the upcoming period of time of unemployment and no income. I have to figure out how to get a job and not end up in a dead end situation, even if no work comes through. I am also responsible for keeping my wife and children happy and fulfilling their demands. I have to do what my husband tells me to do and figure out how to actually go through with what I promised him I would do by the end of the month. I have to figure out how to see my children once per week when they are no longer living close to me.

Your self in Truth is responsible for figuring out how to keep you alive and well during any upcoming period of hardship. They are responsible for managing your stress and worry over any situation, as well as how you are pressured to behave and what you are pushed to do. They are responsible for handling your obesity, health, car troubles, family problems and so forth. They are responsible for your friendships or lack of friendships.

They are responsible for all of this because they are the creator of your life and you emanate from their consciousness, which in turn is connected directly to Truth. They are responsible for stripping me of any remaining feelings of guilt and responsibility. They are responsible for all other aspects of your life. Their responsibility is a function of their ability to act and your inability to act (with real free will.) Because you can only react, and they can react (because of their connection to God,) only they are in a position to shape your life or have any power over it. They have to heal you so you can heal the world and get out of the physical illusion.

Your self in Truth is responsible for all your depression, stress and unsettled feelings including anxiety and negative feelings in dealing with your family or work. They are responsible for how you act, the choices you make and the opportunities that do or do not come to you. They decide what happens and when. They are responsible for what plans you make, and only they can make them (through you), and although it seems as if you are the one making them, it is only that self in Truth who can make them.

There is not one trace or ounce of responsibility left on your shoulders. You will know what to do and when to do it, and how to do it, and it will not be burdensome. If you have negative feelings or experiences, then look at responsibilities that you see yourself as carrying and give them back to your own self in Truth. They are responsible for that process as well.

There is a sort of “zero-point” responsibility that everything comes down to. It is that final level of responsibility that we are taught is the basis for our sense of self based on ego. The “I” alone in the world seeks to survive by competing successfully over a limited pile of resources and then shaping a future through choice, will and force and by holding onto clearly defined goals. The zero-point responsibility is like looking at yourself in the mirror and saying, “This is what I am, and I am alone and I have to do all the things that are expected of me in order to sustain myself properly, regardless of the internal cost to myself.”

That zero-point of responsibility is self-awareness, but a flawed and selfish self-awareness based on untruth. It offers only a clawing, fleeing, fear, anger and pain-based survival in a hostile world with no real hope of improvement. But, by contrast, if you look in that mirror and see yourself in Truth, then the responsibility passes through the mirror and into your self in Truth. And it is by their responsibility that all your responsibilities are removed. So, be patient with the process and be aware of when you feel bad, you can let go of that pent up responsibility and be freed of it by your own self in Truth, merely by mentally giving it back to them.

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