Boiling to the Surface

There is a lot of energy that constantly boils to the surface of our lives in the physical world. Sometimes it is violent and sometimes it is passionate. Other times it can be intensely stifling or boring. But those are all strong energies to be dealt with.

We turn against ourselves when we overflow with boiling energy. Every new one is a threat demanding an immediate and violent reaction from us. Who can argue that this is good for us? We can obviously see that it's when we are the most out of control that we tend to make the most potentially damaging decisions. And yet there is a freedom there of, for once, not having to be “reasonable’ or “sensible” or having to take total responsibility for our actions. In a sense, it is a way out for us so that we can act without having to really think about what we are doing.

We carve our niche in the world and when we get too stressed out, we get pushed too far and we realize that our niche is being threatened. Then we get angry and lash out and we’re less likely to take control or responsibility.

But self-control and free will are both meaningless in an absolute sense and we can’t deal with that end of the issue either. So being out of control is a way for us to not have to acknowledge our powerlessness or our lack of free will. So in a sense it is a safety valve that allows us to not have to confront reality too harshly, but to stay within the boundaries of our comfort zone. But the price we have to pay is that in those moments where things boil over and we are forced to loose control rather than facing ourselves, the consequences of our actions can be pretty heavy and they can add up.

Clearly we are being manipulated, all the time, by advertising, our bosses, the world, etc. We are never free agents in a free world, and least free of all is our own mind. This is sort of the wild west of mind freedom, our own brain and how it functions gives us no room to look too deeply, for if we do we’re sure to see a lot of stuff we can’t face. Given that choice it is easier to deal violently with the world and in a superficial manner with it.

Violence is off-putting and it demands that we keep the world away more at a philosophical level than anything else. It’s a reaction to the stress of constant manipulation attempts towards you by others. If your ego isn’t framed in the right way, every attack by manipulating forces can seem overwhelmingly threatening. The mind that has to fight with the world in this way can never really be at peace at all. It has to either pretend that it is ignoring everything that is happening while subconsciously dealing with the stress, or it has to constantly fight back against all input, which is even more stressful.

The world is out to kill you because it does not see you. It thinks that because it can’t see you or feel you that you don’t exist. Then if it happens to hurt or kill you, the nature of the violent and unpredictable world is presented as a sort of absence of a need to really respond to that violence and what it has done to you.

We say that violence cannot be prevented, but in truth it is more an issue of each person being part of a culture that, just like its individuals, does not want to see the truth too clearly. And so violence is tolerated and dealt with violently.

The violence of justice, of “cleaning up” violent people is presented to the world as the necessary evil created by a violent world. But individual violence is never dealt with societally except in a punitive manner because the world wants to protect itself from excessive self-examination that leads to realization of the truth. So violence against violence is a smokescreen that keeps violence in and excessive self-awareness out.

The idea of justice itself is a means of never looking at the world. “Justice,” as it is currently defined by our society, is the issue of how to hurt and confine someone in such a way that they are hurt as badly as the person that they injured. In doing this we often hurt wives and children of those involved in crime. Although we are lashing out and harming them as well as the offender, we don’t care about them because them because although our own efforts to punish are as criminal against these innocent people (or more so) than the original crime itself was, we do not responsible because we feel entitled to payback on behalf of society. And so the cycle continues.

If individuals who commit crimes are raped in prison, their rape is seen as inconsequential because they are "criminals." The broad stroke of criminality is used to dehumanize the person being punished and the issue of whether or not they deserve to be raped is never addressed.

The alternative to this kind of attack-defense against crime is shown as being anarchy. Obviously no one would choose anarchy so we go back to square one again. And so it goes, but the truth is a little more difficult to face. Being in a society does not in any real way relieve us of the responsibility and burden we carry within ourselves to be at peace with ourselves. That is to say that if we commit crimes in the name of justice, for the good of society, we cannot ignore forever our own part in these crimes.

The crimes remain crimes whether we justify them to ourselves or not, or whether society punishes, rewards or ignores them. Being part of a social program of delivering justice does not relieve us our own mind having to deal with our being part of this. And so, we ask ourselves for a way out, but we are hemmed in on the one hand by our guilty need to serve society by doing what we deem necessary and on the other hand being put off by what we have to do and having trouble living with it.

The criminal and law enforcement worlds are places where the stuff that never gets looked at or resolved by society often is swept under the rug. Often times our justice system is asked to make all or nothing sweeping rulings and laws based on gray-area conflicts that end up leaving no real good being done for society. But keeping these issues out of sight and mind is often seen as the ultimate necessity.

So we are always looking for a third option, a way out, but we don’t seem to find it. Between the world and ourselves we seem to have to choose between peaceful irresponsible cop-out and violent fulfillment of our social responsibility. Either way, we feel guilt for our choice and no real peace within ourselves is possible.

The reason we cannot find the third door is because we ourselves are that door. We created our lives and we see what we want to see. The world is violent because we begin by attacking ourselves. When we question ourselves, our fundamental right to exist, our “worth” or “value,” we essentially open the door to endless attacks against both ourselves and others until we have the wherewithal to close it. Then it is just a matter of looking back and seeing that we constantly rebuilt the violence of the world with each passing moment that we lived in the world.

Obviously, the world seems to be happening too us, not from us (as much,) so it is difficult to be able to see how we are creating the violence of the world. The answer is that the violence we see in ourselves is reflected in our consciousness as an "external world." Seeing is internal but so too is our "external" experience.
Externality is an attack against our own self. As long as there is any form of external world, then we are under attack. Even if we were in Heaven and it was external to us, the threat of attack would always loom over us because what is not within us is potentially against us. How can we guarantee our own safety in a world we are subject to laws, rules and beings that we cannot control?

The external nature of the world is a metaphor for how we are attacking ourselves. When we cease attacking ourselves, even for just a short while, the world will disappear from around us and we will see a completely different kind of world that is both internal, peaceful, loving and entirely responsive to our desires. We will no longer see violence because there is no part of our mind that is engaged in attack.

So, the mirror-like nature of the world as a reflector of our internal states will be completely revealed and the externality mirror shattered only when we see a world, for the first time in our living memory, that reflects our complete absence of attack against ourselves. But how do we accomplish this state?

We cannot draw on any model or idea that falls within the realm of what is familiar to us in order to get to this place. We first have to acknowledge, at least in our mind, that theoretically and perhaps practically such a state of mind is possible. We don’t know exactly how it would look to us or what it would feel like to be in it, but we can at least imagine it is possible. This is step one.

Step two is to take the idea and give it flesh. We breathe life into it by acknowledging that all ideas can be seen and experienced, even ideas that are not real such as physicality. We internally wish to see, with as much intensity as we can muster, this state of no attack against the self and the world that it will reflect back to us. This is the second step.

Thirdly and finally we make ourselves ready to receive such a state of being. We meditate on it, imagining that we are receiving it fully and feeling relief and gladness that we have done so. We play this act out in our minds over and over again, each time growing in our ability to receive what we are asking for while intensifying our desire to see it. Then it grows closer to us. And, we overcome our fear of losing this world when we see it finally.

When the time comes that we see this new world, we are both ready and willing to see and we don’t mind leaving behind the old world. Our willingness is the only necessary element to our success. Now we only have to take these steps ourselves rather than just reading about them. The rest will be history.

Operating out of the Truth only and exclusively, with only a minor and ineffectual portion of your consciousness being still engaged in less than the Truth, one can function at a level that creates a tremendous amount of positive energy and forward movement.

When pursuing one’s desires, the clear path to it is the Truth, because the Truth was designed for that purpose. The Truth only operates at a level of complete fulfillment of all desires. Even though fulfillment happens within the mind, the events within mind mimic the world successfully and even exceed them in realism. So, there is no loss of fulfillment even if one chooses to experience a more idealized version of a physical event as one’s fulfillment. Rather, the nature of the mind and its complete ability to see reality in its own creations can be easily seen in the way the physical experience expresses itself in our minds, as though it was real.

Reality as we feel it is a continuity of events, uninterrupted by events that are incongruous with the reality being created. The moment-to-moment shifts of awareness and “external” phenomenon all relate to the constant states of focus on one thing while awareness is withheld from other things (that could successfully reveal the Truth and break the illusion we are creating).

Like all acts of consciousness, the physical is a realm of action and reaction, which defines experiences in time. Time is likewise a bit of a trick, meant to deceive the mind into thinking that “events” happen and there is an absolute timeline running through and defining all things. Instead, the Truth is just now, with no awareness of any past or future; events previously witnessed are just those ideas in the eternal present we have explored. The "future" events will be made out of ideas we have not yet explored in conjunction with ideas we have already explored. We have a personal timeline, but there is no overreaching timeline of events that define the Truth.

The word “reality” is fundamentally flawed, which is why we use the word “Truth” to describe what is real. Reality suggests that some things are real while other things are not. In actuality, it is meaningless to discuss what is real or unreal in a world where every event springs from the mind of the being that is creating their own experience. Each being is the creator, creating what they desire and giving those desire-ideas a form and a period of time needed for them to be expressed. Likewise, God/Truth is the sum total event of consciousness as a single mind that conceives of all these identities that in turn act as creators of their own experiences.

The creator-mind of each person is not separate from other minds, but is perfectly aligned so that their desires are automatically mutually shared and complementary, allowing both or all of them to create without any worry about the nature of how or where these events can happen, or with whom. Consciousness likewise does not have to be reduced to the use of mannequin-like ideas stripped of their own identities, playing our roles in our minds where we are the only real players in the game. Instead, every being that we imagine interacting with is part of the consciousness of an existing real being; the building-blocks of our creations are actually the wholes or fragments of all other beings in Truth.

Because we cannot hurt others, due to the fundamental nature of the mind as a single entity cooperatively creating with itself, there is no need for hurt or harm which would occur if there was any real conflict of interest between beings. If hurt is imagined, as it is in the physical world, it is created by each player and the combined effect is the physical experience of everyone involved. No being can “do” anything to any other being; we all create our own experience only with the use of our own mind and never at an expense to others.

Desire is the building block of the identity that we have in Truth. It is only desire, not neurosis or pain or fear that drives the psyche at this level. Portions of the consciousness each experience their own desires and as a desire conceives of an idea, that idea comes into focus fully in the mind of the conceiver. Then, when the idea is grasped, it contains both the experience of that desire and the experience of the fulfillment of the desire. If the desire is concerning the idea of physicality, which is understood to be an idea of something that cannot exist, the experiences that make up that desire and its fulfillment contain physical experiences, including, for example, your current physical life.

The “facts” of your physical life are seemingly daunting. It creates a fortress of experience that cannot be overcome by any amount of desire or effort, seemingly. And yet, despite that feeling, the truth is that it is as fragile and easily overcome as any other illusion in reality. The real trick is not in proper effort but in specific desire.

If one has a thing, let’s call it “A,” and this things A is not what we want, we must have in our mind at least some idea of what could replace it. Pursing this idea to its logical conclusion, we establish that it not just an idea but a possible replacement for A. Then, this alternative, which we can call “B,” begins to take on a shape and a life of its own. Eventually, B becomes a real possibility. And when we know that we both believe in the existence of and the merit of B as what we want to replace A, then A effortlessly falls away and B takes its place. This is the real nature of change, a well-established and credible fully-formed desire.

The credibility of B is founded in logic. As we examine A, we see and count its flaws and weaknesses, and do not duplicate them in B. We deduce the ideal from what we see in and see lacking in A. B then is the next logical step in an evolutionary dance towards perfection. Belief in B, logical analysis of A and B, comparison between A and B and finally a desire to replace what is fictional with what is true are all necessary steps in establishing B as the replacement reality.

While all these steps seem cumbersome, they are only necessary because they reflect how by degrees we have an idea in our mind of what we want and then see how what we have is not what we really want, and we choose against it. This initial desire of wanting what we have has to be completely worked through, as well as establishing the new desire. B is a superior desire to A because desires evolve, and because the Truth always draws us back from the darkness of our own imagination.

There are a million and one ways of looking at our own mental creations of experience and identity. Each one can be seen in many different lights. But the fundamental overriding truth of things is this, that we can only be truly happy by creating our experiences in the light of the Truth and not in a world that can never work, such as the “physical” world. This is because the unreal does not love or support us, and our experiences must carry some degree of superficiality and emptiness that cannot be overcome at this level. One cannot cut off a person’s breathing and then ask them to sing, and likewise one cannot expect a person to thrive in an environment that is meant as an attack on our own being and others. This is because the nature of lack of nurture IS attack.

Because the things we take for granted as realities in the physical world are in essence impossible in Truth, it stands to reason that love, nurture and respect and so forth are all present in the Truth at all times. But it goes far beyond that. For, what makes the real “real” is that it is true, not that it has a form or shape separate and discernable from other things. Its power lies in its nature as an abstract idea, not in its ability to prove itself through a form. This is why science chases its tail as it tries to prove or disprove the supernatural through the study of forms.

The forms themselves are meaningless, as they represent ideas in our own minds. They are metaphors. They only act to elicit specific thoughts and feelings within us, much as dreams create environments that elicit the pent-up feelings we need to give expression to.

We never go outside our own mind as we are dreaming our own dreams. The nature of mind is that it owns itself and is not victim to anything. The alternative to that would be an impossible situation where mind would be proven to be a thing under the control of other things, thereby negating the very nature of the mind itself.

Consciousness only imagines it is hurt in the physical by fragmenting its own concentration and choosing to see only tiny portion of a much larger whole truth. In finding that wholeness at last it proves to itself that it is made of consciousness and that consciousness must own itself, as the alternative to the physical illusion is a Truth made of only consciousness.

As an exercise, ask your Self in Only Truth to come through you and to express itself in your own mind. As you do this for a succession of days, your own mind will transform and bend to allow this truth to come through, and when it does it will show you a world free of pain and filled with love and pleasure. Only then will you really appreciate how much the physical world has disappointed us, and how badly we need to leave that illusion behind.

-Until next time
-Chris

Danger is the expression (through one’s circumstances) of your feelings of fear and sense of being threatened. As fear and attack are tied together into one bundle, with one feeding the other, but a seeming separation between them existing also, the truth tends to be difficult to see. In actuality danger and the actualization of danger in loss and harm represents the dynamics of attack as they are expressed symbolically in the consciousness of the experiencer as external experiences in conjunction with internal experiences. In other words, one internal event expresses itself in two different ways, as circumstances that are "dangerous" as well as fear and feelings of being attacked.

Do disassemble attack, one must simply see the root cause that holds it together. Like dissecting a frog, we can see a central heart that keeps the creature going, and likewise we can dissect attack and we find that it is separation from others that keeps it going.

Separation is a state of mind brought on by the idea of Truth or God being removed from one’s own existence. That is to say, that even if you believe in God overall, there is within you a belief in some real separation between yourself and God. This gap can be understood as the symbolic manifestation of the idea that one can oppose the Truth (or God's Will, depending on how you want to frame it verbally.) So, the singel overall idea is the basis for all experiences in which one can be attacked and feel attacked.

The Truth cannot be “acted against,” because everything that happens is made of consciousness only and because that consciousness ultimately occurs in the Truth. Nothing exists that does not exist firstly (and only) in Truth. No matter what degree of separation appears to exist between self and Truth, no level of separation is either real or possible.

The perfection of the Truth seems to be sullied by the reduced nature of physical level experiences. One could then falsely conclude that God’s will contains “evil,” an intent to do harm. This is not the case. The imaginary separation between self and God/Truth is then spun out into a perceived separation between self and others, and a seeming opposition and possible conflict between their best interests.

For example, if a person catches the bus after the bus has waited for them to run to the stop, the perception is that the person has inconvenienced the whole bus by means of slowing down the bus driver. Blame could then be cast upon the driver or the person who is late for making everybody late. Secondly, a person could see that a person does something that is definitely helpful to them, but then sees other people become injured by that help.

The perception and the activity described are all one event. What is seen (the inconvenience being created) and what is experienced and all the internal states of everyone involved are all one idea bound together, but experienced separately. But, in reality, they are all one. For, in actuality, the “reality” experienced is a symbolic expression of the idea that we are separate from God/Truth, so that then in turn we are separate from and sometimes at odds with each other.

So, we attempt to get out of the shadow cast by these broad and untrue ideas, and as we do so we see that our experiences, as seen in Truth, are in no way, shape or form negative or at odds with the Truth, but are simply part of the explanation of an idea that is not true. As we willingly went into this idea, so in turn we willingly leave it, returning to the Truth.

It is not necessary to prove that the “opposite” of an untrue idea is true, because the untrue and the opposing true idea are not connected in Truth. In fact, there is no real link between an untrue idea and the Truth at all. This brings up the necessary question of what allows the question to be experienced in this way. As the mind does not disallow any idea as in a form of censorship, it will willingly explore any idea at all, to its limit. But, it has to do so in a way that does not contradict the Truth, which would be impossible. So, it requires that the mind pretend to sever the connection between the self in Truth and the self locked in ignorance. This allows then the journey away from Truth and ultimately the journey back to it.

But, if it were really possible to sever the self in that way, one would have disrupted the Truth and trapped one’s self outside of it, thus changing the Truth and making it into something else. In actuality, the self in Truth and the self not in Truth are not severed at all. The self in Truth imagines the self not in Truth. In imagining what is not possible in Truth, the mind seems to split when in actuality the mind willingly submits to a seeming split in experience. That illusion is sustained on a moment-by-moment basis, with each moment contacting the self in Truth and then ignoring only those fragments of consciousness that make up the illusory self and experience being created. That split ends the very moment the self in Truth loses interest in the idea of separation between self, others and God’s will.

The experience proves to hold no information whatsoever about the Truth, but the individual in Truth must be convinced of that through having the imagined experience. In turn, on reexamining the experience in hindsight, the person in Truth discovers that they never suffered at all, but that the mind manipulated its own form to actualize the illusion of separation, suffering, conflict and fear.

In seeing what the imagined self did not see in the experience, he or she sees that no information was really withheld from that identity, but that this identity had to choose to simultaneously ignore the Truth while imagining that it could suffer and in actuality knowing that it could not.

So, in the final analysis, the person in Truth is not left with a memory of suffering, but in fact a memory of an experience very different from the one seemingly had by the false self. In all its suffering, that self never suffered and was unable to have any experience outside of Truth, and those experiences revealed nothing about the Truth at all, being untrue.

To emerge from the imagined identity, the individual in Truth must create a resolution experience that draws the individual out of false ideas by a matter of degrees. As the Truth is shown to be True, each false idea the person holds loses its hold over the false self by degrees. However, that loss is not so pronounced as to eject the false identity from its experience until it has an experience that it cannot process in terms of its old ways of thinking. When that happens, the dissonant idea forces the individual to think one True thought, and when that happens, essentially the boundary mechanism idea is activated and the person returns to the Truth.

The ejecting idea is a True idea in the sense that it contains no idea that is not True. However, such an idea introduced too soon would only create confusion. The individual must identify with partially True ideas enough to discern a path home.

The idea of Truth that is encountered always happens when the timing is perfect, not before or after. It is the logical end to an illogical experience. The cascade of this idea is a stepping away from or rejecting of one false idea after another with no event of pulling attention away from the idea or of turning back onto false ideas to resolve the question without really resolving it.

How can the false self tell what is True? The false self discerns the Truth through a seemingly outward process of questing (or questioning) that leads ultimately to the Truth. Of course such a process is totally inside consciousness and is internal. The Truth manifests in the “untrue” world as consciousness that is clear and high. If it illuminates other ideas, one is naturally drawn to it, and by degrees this illumination is increased.

Ultimately, the Truth beckons very vigorously. That allure is felt as a need to finally give up on untruth. But, the mind in untruth remains attached to certain untrue ideas. Despite the certainty of the majority of one’s consciousness in the value of Truth, the attachments must be dealt with on an individual basis. As much as one or two attachments can bind the psyche to false experience.

Attachments to false ideas tend to fall into groupings that are common and identifiable between individuals. First, there is attachment around the idea of having a “separate” identity. This idea tends to draw one into experiences that are both negative and positive around one’s own uniqueness, one’s personal “qualities,” or of one’s contribution to society, a person, a cause, etc. Accomplishment, conflict and heroism and sacrifice are common themes. This idea is undone through the truth that there is no real self separate from God, and that we do not even exist separately from God.

There are attachments relating to desire. That is to say, one wishes to have pleasures or experiences that involve danger, fear, risk, darkness, debauchery, all with an implicit undertone of one’s being separate from God/Truth.

There are experiences of human relationships, such as falling in love, but with the overtone of separateness, that people can become attached to. They can be attached to the up and down cycles of arguing and reconciliation or of new infatuations or the conflict between love and sacrifice.

To understand any of these attachments, across the board, one must ultimately understand that we do not really want them. They are to some degree a distasteful experience that is less than the experience as it exists at higher levels. It offers us nothing we really want.

Your self in Truth is responsible for all of your moods and feelings, including feeling separate from your Self in Truth. If you grasp this at a logical level, you will identify with your self in Truth whenever you wish to. When you understand that your desire or lack of it to be your self in Truth is their responsibility, you will immediately want to be your self and Truth and then you will identify with him or her.

When you have an “untruthful” or “negative” thought and place the responsibility for that thought back on your self in Truth, then you will immediately understand that this happens in response to your underlying state of desire. Then, when you realize that your self in Truth determines what you want to think, then you will immediately have the thoughts associated with your degree of identification with your self in Truth.

Everything in physical experience runs in chains of dependency. Those chains sustain each link-to-link-like relationship by reinforcing the first ideas in the chain with the later links. So, if you retain the fundamental ideas that sustain a chain of dependency, then you will suffer from guilt that runs through the whole chain right up to the issue itself, from the most abstract ideas to the most “solid” expressions of those ideas. In other words, you will feel guilt on multiple levels for every level of involvement that you have with everything in the world that in some way causes harm to others, from working at a company that pollutes to belonging to a political party that sometimes hurts people.

Our sense of responsibility is the chain that binds us to guilt. However, in Truth, we are not responsible for anything. That does not mean we can hurt people with no consequences, but we are not responsible for what we do. We do not have the free will necessary to hold any responsibility.

I know that this is a confusing and implausible statement, but please stay with me. At each moment of time we make a decision based on our entire past experience as it reacts to our current life situation. In this moment the one finite thing (our present self) reacts to another finite thing (our current circumstances.) This interaction between two finites produces a finite response that is not based on "free will" of any sort. In fact, there is no "free will" involved in any situation.

Free will is an idea that our conscious mind runs on. But, it is completely an illusion. However, the illusion of free will is all we need to function. We do not need an absolute and unquestionable free will to act. We are a function and we function.

Guilt is not a reality based response to what we do. We unfairly judge ourselves based on hindsight. But, in the moment, no matter how bad or flawed our decision and action is, it is the best we are capable of in that moment. The conceit that somehow that person was capable of doing better is the lie that seeks to establish guilt and justify punishment. But, there is no basis for it in reality.

Responsibilities, as we said before, tie us to guilt by implicitly suggesting that to not fulfill our "responsibility" is to harm others when, through our free will, we can simply choose to always fulfill all our responsibilities without exception. Even if one could pull off such a feat for a day or a week or even a month, our human nature will ultimately cause us to fail at some level. It is not lack of desire that prevents us from fulfilling the fantasty of "responsibility," it is the fantasy nature of the idea of responsibility itself.

It is not your responsibility to get rid of your remaining sense of guilt. If there is any remaining responsibilities that you are holding onto, you just need to realize that you have no responsibility in that area. Knowing this, you will still choose to fulfill most of them because of the negative consequences of not fulfilling them. Know you have no responsibilities doesn't radically change how you behave, only how you think about your behavior. Your "failure" to be "responsible" can simply become an affirmation of the non-existence of "free will" and "responsibility."

Here is an example of some responsibilities that you might still be carrying around mentally. I have to figure out how to survive the upcoming period of time of unemployment and no income. I have to figure out how to get a job and not end up in a dead end situation, even if no work comes through. I am also responsible for keeping my wife and children happy and fulfilling their demands. I have to do what my husband tells me to do and figure out how to actually go through with what I promised him I would do by the end of the month. I have to figure out how to see my children once per week when they are no longer living close to me.

Your self in Truth is responsible for figuring out how to keep you alive and well during any upcoming period of hardship. They are responsible for managing your stress and worry over any situation, as well as how you are pressured to behave and what you are pushed to do. They are responsible for handling your obesity, health, car troubles, family problems and so forth. They are responsible for your friendships or lack of friendships.

They are responsible for all of this because they are the creator of your life and you emanate from their consciousness, which in turn is connected directly to Truth. They are responsible for stripping me of any remaining feelings of guilt and responsibility. They are responsible for all other aspects of your life. Their responsibility is a function of their ability to act and your inability to act (with real free will.) Because you can only react, and they can react (because of their connection to God,) only they are in a position to shape your life or have any power over it. They have to heal you so you can heal the world and get out of the physical illusion.

Your self in Truth is responsible for all your depression, stress and unsettled feelings including anxiety and negative feelings in dealing with your family or work. They are responsible for how you act, the choices you make and the opportunities that do or do not come to you. They decide what happens and when. They are responsible for what plans you make, and only they can make them (through you), and although it seems as if you are the one making them, it is only that self in Truth who can make them.

There is not one trace or ounce of responsibility left on your shoulders. You will know what to do and when to do it, and how to do it, and it will not be burdensome. If you have negative feelings or experiences, then look at responsibilities that you see yourself as carrying and give them back to your own self in Truth. They are responsible for that process as well.

There is a sort of “zero-point” responsibility that everything comes down to. It is that final level of responsibility that we are taught is the basis for our sense of self based on ego. The “I” alone in the world seeks to survive by competing successfully over a limited pile of resources and then shaping a future through choice, will and force and by holding onto clearly defined goals. The zero-point responsibility is like looking at yourself in the mirror and saying, “This is what I am, and I am alone and I have to do all the things that are expected of me in order to sustain myself properly, regardless of the internal cost to myself.”

That zero-point of responsibility is self-awareness, but a flawed and selfish self-awareness based on untruth. It offers only a clawing, fleeing, fear, anger and pain-based survival in a hostile world with no real hope of improvement. But, by contrast, if you look in that mirror and see yourself in Truth, then the responsibility passes through the mirror and into your self in Truth. And it is by their responsibility that all your responsibilities are removed. So, be patient with the process and be aware of when you feel bad, you can let go of that pent up responsibility and be freed of it by your own self in Truth, merely by mentally giving it back to them.

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Everyone has a particular "thing" that they find most interesting and are particularly good at. For me, it is bringing Spiritual information down to this level and writing about it. I have been working on visualization, which is the practice of improving your ability to see with the mind's eye, and then using that ability to assist me in connecting to higher levels of consciousness and then translating the guidance they give me into exercises and practical guidance that can be used to improve your quality of life and the depth of your Spiritual life.

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Everything that happens moves us towards an understanding that the world we see (physical world) is undesireable. This is guidance that gradually moves us on an introspective journey into our own consciousness. There we find a new "real world" that competes with the outer world for that title. We begin to see that the world is a mental projection, and that we are in truth entirely made up of consciousness, and that the world is also made of consciousness.

The illusion of physicality causes us to constantly react to our circumstances. The person we think we are is defined by our constant internal and external reactions to what we think, feel and see. As a result, we never actually "do" anything, we simply react. Even if we build a business empire over the course of years, it can be reduced to a reaction to the world. We don't have the free agency we want because who we are is so completely defined by what we were in the past and how the interaction of self and circumstances caused us to change. So "free will" is a bit of a misnomer.

But, we exist at a level of consciousness that I refer to as Spirit. This is not some imaginary lala land, but simply a higher frequency of consciousness. Consciousness can take any form or shape, such as images, sounds, objects, circumstances, events, feelings, thoughts and of course the mind that observes these things. Rather than being external to us, our entire reality exists in our own mind.

Because we exist with others in shared circumstances, it doesn't seem to make any sense to say that reality is internal to our own mind. But, because we are operating on many levels that we are not currently aware of, we extend higher and higher, even to the point of a place where we are all one being, which I refer to as God/Truth (because the "G" world tends to make people skittish).

This one identity should not be seen as some sort of bloated monster that scrapes off the individuality of a person and consumes their soul. Rather, it allows both perfection of personal identification as well as perfect harmony with others. Like the gears in a complex antique clock, each person does what they want, and simultaneously what they do allows every other being to do what they want.

This truth holds and is obvious at a level called Spirit. Spirit is a place of infinite time and possible personal expression. It is not subject to time and space because it is an internal level of consciousness made out of one's own creations. You can interact with others here and even fulfill desires with others in ways that seem impossible, given that the other people or person is unlikely to want to do the same thing. But, because we are all at the highest level one single being (God/Truth), the whole is designed so that everyone can have their desires fulfilled at all times and others can in fulfilling their desires incidentally fulfill all the desires of others. The whole mechanism is a huge synchronicity.

Time does not limit this situation because there is no one single timeline imposed on everyone at Spirit level. This is because time is something that comes into being only to allow us to have an experience we have created. There is no overriding timeline in Spirit because we are not subject to a spacial physical reality that would impose this on us. Rather, each person has a timeline for each experience that they have.

This state of affairs that we see in Spirit does not seem to hold true in the physical world. However, it actually does but due to the nature of our state of consciousness that holds us here we are not seeing the process that we ourselves are participating in. But this subject matter is complex and needs its own extensive discussion.

I look forward to sharing with you and I hope that this material is helpful.

-Chris